I went for the medical checkup on monday. Really cant wait to go to my new job bcos its 8 to 5! meaning more time for my girlfrens and myself.. so happy.. hehe.. I hate the blood test cos i am freakin scared of needles so i forced myself to turn away.. Overall, it was still alright..

The last weekend something happened betw me n him.. or should i say i was having some internal struggle.. The girls that he knew from clubbing came to view mi in friendster, so out of curiosity i viewed them back, only to find him in their photos physically close.
Yesterday, i confronted him about this matter n sorry is the only thing he could say. He always said he wont do it again but yet it is coming back time over time. I told him he have really no idea what i am going through unless i did it back on him. Many times i really tot of letting him taste his own medicine, but i cant, its not something that i would do.

Surprisingly, when i talked to him abt it ytd, i wasnt angry, wasnt disappointed neither did i cry. I dont know wat i am feeling. He asked why am i so quiet, i dont know. He said he is going to prove that he really wants to change. He is gonna give mi a sum of money every mth for mi to keep to prevent him from going clubbing.

I was half-hearted. Its not abt the number of times he go clubbing anymore. He just dont get it. I asked him where do u see us 2 years' down the road. He wans to settle if both of us are stable in terms of career. Funny, i start to dread this very day.